The Mad Ones

They danced down the streets like dingledodies, and I shambled after as I've been doing all my life after people who interest me, because the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes "Awww!"

You Only Get Twenty Five

1. I have small ears
2. I suffer from the neurological condition that is characterized by the irresistible urge to move the legs, which is known as Restless Leg Syndrome
3. I have an extremely active imagination which allows me to escape into daydream, probably more than I should.
4. I "scratch" my nose in public. a lot.
5. I am legally blind
6. Though I'm more tone deaf than a monkey, I love to sing. The louder the volume, the more freedom I have to open up those pipes.
7. I still don't know what I want to do. But this isn't it.
8. When I was ten years old, I wanted to be in a rock music video i.e. Heart Shaped Box by Nirvana
9. Sometimes my mind wanders so fast that when I think I have a great idea, before I can process it, I'm already onto the next thought and have no recolection of what I was just thinking. This just happened. Just now.
10. When I was 11 years old, I won a national ad campaign against gun violence. It took me 12 years to finally get over my fear of attention and appreciate my young talent.
11. I wish I had never stopped dancing
12. I'm a hopeless romantic at heart even though I try to hide it behind my faux cynicism
13. I think psychics are phony
14. One day I'd like to have my fortune read
15. Surprises are sweet and greatly appreciated
16. When I was younger, my best friend and I used to think that one day all my freckles would connect and I would look like a golden goddess. Now, I'm just a goddess.
17. I use arts + crafts as therapy. Except the time I took it out on the wall.
18. After 35 years, my parents are still together and have more love for each other at this point in their lives than ever before. For this I believe forever is possible.
19. I am terrified of public speaking
20. One day when I find myself with more time, I want to write a screen play
21. I get overwhelmed thinking about the amount of life and possibilities that exist and therefore the future scares the shit out of me.
22. I am genuinely afraid of the dark.
23. Youre never too old for a bubble bath
24. I would like to live in Europe at some point. Be it only a year, this is something I need to do.
25. Hugs. Big ones.

This Year on 8.5 x 11

I figured this would be a good way to start my first post.

I came across this and it was as simple as it looks. Call it a list of resolutions if you will, but I will refer to it as a list of goals. And I will look at it every day. And I will be as true as possible to these words.

I won't lie.

Some of these certainly won't come as easy as others, but I feel good about it. Positive change is good for me. As was leaving Miami. Oh, that was a side note.

So this is it. To a positive 2009!